we love living together. we already have habits (he controls the alarm clock and gets the coffee pot ready at night, and i'm already such a wife). we are getting married in twenty five days.

there is only one thing that makes me sad, lately. i wish it was like it used to be - i didn't notice, didn't care. now we all notice everything. his perfect wall, how we don't know anything about him, how he just appeared with no past. she and i are finding sad things online that i wish we hadn't gone looking for. because now, when he talks sweet and grins and says all of the things that used to make me angry and uncomfortable, part of me hopes that his (genuine, though joked about) feelings for me will make him vulnerable enough to confide. because he needs a friend. i don't know how i would be his friend, but here i stand, placed strategically in his path. i've been given this life to help people. and he is a person. but i have no idea what to do.

[ bright eyes ]