"i hate being in my hometown. i havent been here since i graduated and it is easy to get in a situation that i know i shouldnt be in....lack of motivation, or even the want to do anything at all is definately not working in me. I miss my baby so much, it hurts. Even though Josh was sick for a while there was no preparing, Josh was tough and he was going to get through anything...we were going to get a new place, have our wedding, everything was not supposed to be this way. This way is Not the way it is supposed to be."

[r.e.m.]